不想長大

my resolutions of 2010:

stop being so paranoid.
stop thinking too much.

most important. BE HAPPY

真係變得越黎越懶... 成個半月無update lu.....
因為10月之後變得好忙.... 好多project交.... 然後又考試...
考試不是很好但我念應該都會全部pass.....

我終於放假啦!! 但系... 好懶...我無溫工... 但其實又好懶去溫... 因為12月頭... 我跟老公去Cairns旅行... 之後一月頭就返香港啦... 老公好好彩... 佢溫到一分系朋友都做...所以可以安心D去旅行...

有時我成日決得自己好無用.... 又唔去儹錢... 只識得去吃喝玩樂....
然後好懶... 成日唔煮飯.. 要等老公返黎煮... 親我宜家有時間.... 我一定要好好利用去學時煮飯!! 煮返一餐好比老公..

之後裡排.... 都唔知系唔系多時間... 成日決得自己念埋D無聊野...
不知道為什麼... 我對自己好無信心...

唔可以再念埋D無為野...
要念去旅行D野啦!!! 好好安排行程....
好好念下買什麼比老公做聖誕禮物...

好期待旅行阿!!

哎哎..... 我又病啦.....
其實唔係好大件事... 無話發燒咁嚴重... 知事發炎...
雖然只係發炎... 但都搞到身體唔舒服.... 成日個人落晒型...

趕快就差唔多semester完啦...
3個作業之中.. 兩個都七七八八搞點...
宜家就怕就系entrepreneurship o個個.... week 12交... 宜家week10都仲未開始...有D擔心...D groupmates有好像無物動裡去做.... aiii.... entrepreneurship真係好擔心阿!!

自己又變得越來越懶喔.... 關於entrepreneurship事早堂.... 老師又成日講廢話...完全無衝勁去上佢堂課....
然後.... internship o個到... 又系沒有衝勁去返... 一來; 無錢的工作...... 二來; 佢o個到又學無到野... 完全當我地係office boy.... 幫佢地做D打雜....我已經第二次請病假啦.... 其實好想辭左分工但又好次唔好意思咁... 點算好?? 我念我最多幫佢到月底.... 下個月開始考試我就同佢地講我唔做.... 費時浪費時間... 不如系屋企好好溫書好過??

rah.... 裡個semester.... 我真的變得非常懶... 若遇到困難情景... 我就變到非常沒有鬥智.. 然後很容易放棄... hai ....

點解我變成咁架.....

aiiaii.... 我又唔想做野啦!!!
今個semester我真係好懶..... 唔都唔想做..
每日只會訓到次一次先起身... 食完午餐睇睇電視之後又再訓.... 訓完就食晚飯...
真係變成豬啦...... !!!

hehe... 但系我覺得自己好幸福阿!! 因為每天都又好好食o個晚餐等我!!
老公真係好�匈臆�!! 物都識煮!!
佢又好體諒我... 成日都就我... (好彩佢唔嚴氣我成日訓覺..成日全D懶毒比佢唼)
好幸福呢.....

ugh. i have been sick for almost an entire week and im just slowly recovering. it was dreadful the first couple of days. first it was constantly being cold, followed by excessive sneezing and runny nose and coughing as well. then resulted w/ barely being able to breathe. just terrible. haven't been so sick in a long time.

however, the result of this cold/flu wasn't relief of being well and ability to work again. but that after this week, somehow, i totally lost track of myself. i have no desire to work hard nor do any of my schoolwork. while i was sick, i received an internship offer; however, now that im near to being well again, i suddenly don't have the passion to do anything anymore. and before w/ the consideration of continuing studies for a second major- i kind of want to give up on that as well.

i realized that im actually not as independent nor strong as i once was or perhaps im at the stage where im becoming once again dependent on someone else to take care of me; yet, at the same time, im not exactly feeling im being taken care of. many thoughts are going through my head again and sometimes, i wish i was back at home w/ my mum. despite the freedom living by myself, i sometimes wish i actually have a family. i know i shouldn't be complaining since to be honest, im already quite spoiled and have many things that others may not have.

yet. im still feeling some emptiness......